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Saturday, May 06, 2006

SOMEBODY KILL ME!
I'm doing something i know that is not right but by doing the opposite just contradicts with my principles.. its so fucking irritating to be in such situations. i hope someone could just shoot me dead. urggghhhh..

+ [ xferferx ] s h i n e s + 5/06/2006 12:04:00 AM

Wednesday, April 26, 2006

I really feel very giulty for touching my blog just because i'm bored. But i can't help it. lol

I'm bored now. and also after reading so many blogs. it sort of urge me to come and write something. so here i am.

In the past when i just started to blog.. when i was still loyal to my blog and bother to write my entry regularly, i couldnt understand those people who enjoy reading other's blog but refuse to write themselves. Now that i've turned into a blog reader instead of blogger. i understand why. Blogging might play different roles in diff blogger's life. there are people who blog for a living. there are people who blog just to find a place for them to vend their fustrations and anger. some just blog because they have nothing better to do, like myself here. there are alot of other bla bla bla bla reasons. so yea. so back to topic, why some prefer to just read others' blogs and not blog themselves.
#1. some are just pure lazy (including myself)
#2. some claim that they cant write
#3. some just prefer to read and comment on others (and not be commented by others)
#4. some just want to stay out of trouble

In the past, blogging had different impacts in my life. it made me happier at times. it cure the boredom at that moment. but at times it was the source of T R O U B L E. yes trouble. wadeva u've typed in ur blog might be used against u as evidence. You might not have typed wadeva u did in purpose. u might have just said it because u are angry, it might be just u fending ur anger. but sometimes whatever u have said, either on purpose or not, u've done it. (i noe i have mentioned this a gazillion times) it is just like u killed someone in an accident -- not in purpose.. BUT! the person still died no matter what. Some might say but u can delete ur blog entries and treat it like nothing has happened before. but nah.. if the person against u is determined enough to kick ur ass hard, he/she will go to all extent. so yes. technology can help you, it can also destroy you. there are cases of bloggers being put to jail because of a racist comment he made.

for myself.. there was a period when things went wrong among my frens.. and this line just killed wadeva i said to justify and protect myself (but u mention "bla bla.. wadeva that is different from wad i was saying to rescue myself.. bla bla" in ur blog before) that totally jus killed me.

and also some comments that i get for wad i've said is sometimes cruel and brutal to my feelings.. many of us will say, jus don't bother abt wad others' say.. its easier said than done. and it is also an act of denial.. so why people prefer to comment on others and not wanting to recieve comments from others... some comments are good.. but not all.. u can have 90% of good comments. but just that small 10% of bad ones can kill.. it over-power the good ones..

Wonder why i'm saying all this? don't ask me. i dont noe either. lol. it is just pure boredom. =)

enough of all those crap..

Back to MY LIFE. yes MY LIFE. Its time to update abt my life.. (not like anyone will read. but yea) school have started. i would say its fine.. new classmates.. new cds.. new semester.. bla bla. i love my timetable !! i end at 1 for wed, thurs, fri. =) but i hate baby's timetable. it jus doesnt match with mine.

I wonder how my life will be without baby.. there aint anyone who noe me better than him.. at least for now.. all my v v v v good frens from peicai, its not like they ain't good no more.. but everyone is bz will their own things, not leaving out myself. we meet up once in a while, but it isn't the same anymore like last time. whereby we studied in the same place and have all the common topics. now that everyone is in different course and for me different institution.. it gives me even lesser topics to talk abt with them.. when we want to update abt our lives.. we dont exactly noe where to start.. and not like they noe who i'm talking abt cos they nv see my current frens b4..
not forgetting von and the rest.. eversince poly started, they are like the closest to me apart from baby.. but we barely knew each other for a year and in that patethic year i wasnt here for 2+ months.. we might noe the current things that are happening to each other.. but we dont exactly noe everything abt each other.. god gave us really lil time to noe each other.. like the minimum.. now that we are in diff class.. OH GOD!? different timetable.. OH BUDDHA!? diff cds.. OH ALLAH!? well at least we still have the same lectures together.. but that is NOT ENOUGH! NO NO NO!!
it's almost 10 months since baby and i got together.. and during sec4, he was the rubbish bin of mine.. my loyal "listener" in msn who nv fail to "listen" to all the rubbish i have to say.. be it abt bf, frens, parents, brother, school, teacher..wadeva bullshit. but now that we are together.. he cant be that effective dustbin anymore. lol.

i noe this is like random and no-link to wad i've said above.. but baby and i watched 8 below yesterday! and it is fucking good. and on the way to the cinema, we saw miss nancy tan (my previous sem macroecon's tutor) back to 8 below. it is SUPER good. those dogs are super cute. and damn! they can act better than human.. so natural.. so real.. so good.. and bless with the natural element of CUTENESS. it was just so so so so very good.

i've said enough.. if i'm bored, i'll come back again. =)

+ [ xferferx ] s h i n e s + 4/26/2006 03:01:00 PM

Friday, September 09, 2005

it has been ages since i blogged.. i'm jus too lazy.. busy.. i tink more of the lazy part.. =)
exams' over!.. screwed them up.. but.. wadeva.. cant be bothered..
time pass super fast.. like nobody's business.. a semester over.. how fast..

oh ya.. i'm sick.. thx to shahrul affandi bin omar.. tsk. wad a bastard.
and thx to the stupid weather.. its like changing everyday.. can be super hot today.. tml might be raining like nobody's business.. this sucks.. wad's wrong with this planet.. its going mad.. tsk tsk.. this is bad..

+ [ xferferx ] s h i n e s + 9/09/2005 11:00:00 PM

Tuesday, August 16, 2005

i'm on the verge of collapsing..
am i jus thinking too much?
am i jus being paranoid?
am i being over-sensetive?
oh god.. save me..
my heart sank..
my stomach is failing me..
my body doesn't seem to withstand all this..

+ [ xferferx ] s h i n e s + 8/16/2005 10:35:00 PM

Wednesday, August 03, 2005

i HATE cranky old man... like mad.. i jus hate them to the core!.. wad the hell is wrong with them?!?!?!
well.. 1st.. my uncle.. he's like a JACKASS!.. damn him man... damn him..
this morning.. i went to meet sam at the bus stop.. n suddenly realised tt i forgot to bring something!.. so rushed back to take it.. so went back home.. rush to my room.. n get my stuff.. i was in a RUSH!.. so didn't close the door silently.. n tt asshole came out from the washroom.. screamed at me.. yell at me.. for BANGING the door.. wad the fuck.. i didnt BANG the fucking door.. even IF i did.. i was in a RUSH!.. n does banging the door do any harm to him?.. the ans is a straight NO!... wad the hell.. i cant be bothered.. went out.. n he was like slamming the gate.. dunno for wad.. or maybe to show me tt he also noe how to make loud noises using the door? knn.. made me super pek chek.. i jus went like.. u also bang the door loudly wad.. WAD THE HELL.. cheee bai noe.. not tt i dun wan to respect elders.. he fucking dun deserve it.. i look down on him.. his presence is a fucking mistake.. not tt i wanna be mean.. but it will be great if he jus get into an accident n never come home to piss me off.. cos he is the No.1 sucker.. asshole.. jackass.. cranky shiet in the world man!...

after tt.. we went bedok to meet michelle.. she need to go watson to get something.. we wasnt really sure of the way.. we went the wrong way n had to turn back.. n here come a fucking cranky old man saying.. WAD ARE U ALL DOING? WALKING HERE N THERE?.. wassup man.. is it wrong to not noe the way?.. moreover.. tt piece of land is not his!.. i can walk there for as many times as i want wad.. wassup.. knn.. wad's wrong with them man?.. OLD.. pethatic..

they jus deserve a __ middle finger pointed right in front of their face..

it has been super long since i blogged.. sorry tt this entry is full of complains.. but i jus need to express myself.. to let everyone noe how irritating old ppl are nowadays..

+ [ xferferx ] s h i n e s + 8/03/2005 10:13:00 PM

Tuesday, July 12, 2005

it has been loOooOooong since i updated..
dunno wad to write..
so.. nvm..
lol..

+ [ xferferx ] s h i n e s + 7/12/2005 12:17:00 AM

Wednesday, June 29, 2005

i'm so not in the mood today.. y? pms.
my dad called me.. when i was in school.. he wanted to talk to me.. but i wasnt home.. so ask my aunt abt how am i doing.. my aunt say i didnt sign my tuition grant.. n he said tt.. ya.. i cant afford to waste the 3 years serving the bond.. den my aunt told him i go home late n sometime nv even go home.. stuff like tt..
den when i reached home.. gave him a call.. he jus shouted at me.. reminding me tt i'm a girl.. not allowing me stay outside the whole nite.. -.-'' i noe tt he wants to tell me more serious stuff.. like discussing abt my course.. n tt i need to go back to our company to help.. den he told me those shiet!.. like i'll care.. c'mon.. get a life man.. i only have 3 years to life like a normal young adult.. after 3 years need to go back n handle HUGE work load.. can't they jus let me enjoy my youth.. at least for this 3 years.. how i wish i wasn't in such a complicated family..

+ [ xferferx ] s h i n e s + 6/29/2005 08:28:00 PM