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i'm so fustrated. urgh.

2006-05-06T00:04:00.000+08:00

SOMEBODY KILL ME!
I'm doing something i know that is not right but by doing the opposite just contradicts with my principles.. its so fucking irritating to be in such situations. i hope someone could just shoot me dead. urggghhhh..

I'm finally here. =)

2006-04-26T15:01:00.000+08:00

I really feel very giulty for touching my blog just because i'm bored. But i can't help it. lol

I'm bored now. and also after reading so many blogs. it sort of urge me to come and write something. so here i am.

In the past when i just started to blog.. when i was still loyal to my blog and bother to write my entry regularly, i couldnt understand those people who enjoy reading other's blog but refuse to write themselves. Now that i've turned into a blog reader instead of blogger. i understand why. Blogging might play different roles in diff blogger's life. there are people who blog for a living. there are people who blog just to find a place for them to vend their fustrations and anger. some just blog because they have nothing better to do, like myself here. there are alot of other bla bla bla bla reasons. so yea. so back to topic, why some prefer to just read others' blogs and not blog themselves.
#1. some are just pure lazy (including myself)
#2. some claim that they cant write
#3. some just prefer to read and comment on others (and not be commented by others)
#4. some just want to stay out of trouble

In the past, blogging had different impacts in my life. it made me happier at times. it cure the boredom at that moment. but at times it was the source of T R O U B L E. yes trouble. wadeva u've typed in ur blog might be used against u as evidence. You might not have typed wadeva u did in purpose. u might have just said it because u are angry, it might be just u fending ur anger. but sometimes whatever u have said, either on purpose or not, u've done it. (i noe i have mentioned this a gazillion times) it is just like u killed someone in an accident -- not in purpose.. BUT! the person still died no matter what. Some might say but u can delete ur blog entries and treat it like nothing has happened before. but nah.. if the person against u is determined enough to kick ur ass hard, he/she will go to all extent. so yes. technology can help you, it can also destroy you. there are cases of bloggers being put to jail because of a racist comment he made.

for myself.. there was a period when things went wrong among my frens.. and this line just killed wadeva i said to justify and protect myself (but u mention "bla bla.. wadeva that is different from wad i was saying to rescue myself.. bla bla" in ur blog before) that totally jus killed me.

and also some comments that i get for wad i've said is sometimes cruel and brutal to my feelings.. many of us will say, jus don't bother abt wad others' say.. its easier said than done. and it is also an act of denial.. so why people prefer to comment on others and not wanting to recieve comments from others... some comments are good.. but not all.. u can have 90% of good comments. but just that small 10% of bad ones can kill.. it over-power the good ones..

Wonder why i'm saying all this? don't ask me. i dont noe either. lol. it is just pure boredom. =)

enough of all those crap..

Back to MY LIFE. yes MY LIFE. Its time to update abt my life.. (not like anyone will read. but yea) school have started. i would say its fine.. new classmates.. new cds.. new semester.. bla bla. i love my timetable !! i end at 1 for wed, thurs, fri. =) but i hate baby's timetable. it jus doesnt match with mine.

I wonder how my life will be without baby.. there aint anyone who noe me better than him.. at least for now.. all my v v v v good frens from peicai, its not like they ain't good no more.. but everyone is bz will their own things, not leaving out myself. we meet up once in a while, but it isn't the same anymore like last time. whereby we studied in the same place and have all the common topics. now that everyone is in different course and for me different institution.. it gives me even lesser topics to talk abt with them.. when we want to update abt our lives.. we dont exactly noe where to start.. and not like they noe who i'm talking abt cos they nv see my current frens b4..
not forgetting von and the rest.. eversince poly started, they are like the closest to me apart from baby.. but we barely knew each other for a year and in that patethic year i wasnt here for 2+ months.. we might noe the current things that are happening to each other.. but we dont exactly noe everything abt each other.. god gave us really lil time to noe each other.. like the minimum.. now that we are in diff class.. OH GOD!? different timetable.. OH BUDDHA!? diff cds.. OH ALLAH!? well at least we still have the same lectures together.. but that is NOT ENOUGH! NO NO NO!!
it's almost 10 months since baby and i got together.. and during sec4, he was the rubbish bin of mine.. my loyal "listener" in msn who nv fail to "listen" to all the rubbish i have to say.. be it abt bf, frens, parents, brother, school, teacher..wadeva bullshit. but now that we are together.. he cant be that effective dustbin anymore. lol.

i noe this is like random and no-link to wad i've said above.. but baby and i watched 8 below yesterday! and it is fucking good. and on the way to the cinema, we saw miss nancy tan (my previous sem macroecon's tutor) back to 8 below. it is SUPER good. those dogs are super cute. and damn! they can act better than human.. so natural.. so real.. so good.. and bless with the natural element of CUTENESS. it was just so so so so very good.

i've said enough.. if i'm bored, i'll come back again. =)

2005-09-09T23:00:00.000+08:00

it has been ages since i blogged.. i'm jus too lazy.. busy.. i tink more of the lazy part.. =)
exams' over!.. screwed them up.. but.. wadeva.. cant be bothered..
time pass super fast.. like nobody's business.. a semester over.. how fast..

oh ya.. i'm sick.. thx to shahrul affandi bin omar.. tsk. wad a bastard.
and thx to the stupid weather.. its like changing everyday.. can be super hot today.. tml might be raining like nobody's business.. this sucks.. wad's wrong with this planet.. its going mad.. tsk tsk.. this is bad..

save me

2005-08-16T22:35:00.000+08:00

i'm on the verge of collapsing..
am i jus thinking too much?
am i jus being paranoid?
am i being over-sensetive?
oh god.. save me..
my heart sank..
my stomach is failing me..
my body doesn't seem to withstand all this..

wad's with cranky old man!?!?!?!

2005-08-03T22:13:00.000+08:00

i HATE cranky old man... like mad.. i jus hate them to the core!.. wad the hell is wrong with them?!?!?!
well.. 1st.. my uncle.. he's like a JACKASS!.. damn him man... damn him..
this morning.. i went to meet sam at the bus stop.. n suddenly realised tt i forgot to bring something!.. so rushed back to take it.. so went back home.. rush to my room.. n get my stuff.. i was in a RUSH!.. so didn't close the door silently.. n tt asshole came out from the washroom.. screamed at me.. yell at me.. for BANGING the door.. wad the fuck.. i didnt BANG the fucking door.. even IF i did.. i was in a RUSH!.. n does banging the door do any harm to him?.. the ans is a straight NO!... wad the hell.. i cant be bothered.. went out.. n he was like slamming the gate.. dunno for wad.. or maybe to show me tt he also noe how to make loud noises using the door? knn.. made me super pek chek.. i jus went like.. u also bang the door loudly wad.. WAD THE HELL.. cheee bai noe.. not tt i dun wan to respect elders.. he fucking dun deserve it.. i look down on him.. his presence is a fucking mistake.. not tt i wanna be mean.. but it will be great if he jus get into an accident n never come home to piss me off.. cos he is the No.1 sucker.. asshole.. jackass.. cranky shiet in the world man!...

after tt.. we went bedok to meet michelle.. she need to go watson to get something.. we wasnt really sure of the way.. we went the wrong way n had to turn back.. n here come a fucking cranky old man saying.. WAD ARE U ALL DOING? WALKING HERE N THERE?.. wassup man.. is it wrong to not noe the way?.. moreover.. tt piece of land is not his!.. i can walk there for as many times as i want wad.. wassup.. knn.. wad's wrong with them man?.. OLD.. pethatic..

they jus deserve a __ middle finger pointed right in front of their face..

it has been super long since i blogged.. sorry tt this entry is full of complains.. but i jus need to express myself.. to let everyone noe how irritating old ppl are nowadays..

finally.. i'm updating.. =D

2005-07-12T00:17:00.000+08:00

it has been loOooOooong since i updated..
dunno wad to write..
so.. nvm..
lol..

super not in the mood today...

2005-06-29T20:28:00.000+08:00

i'm so not in the mood today.. y? pms.
my dad called me.. when i was in school.. he wanted to talk to me.. but i wasnt home.. so ask my aunt abt how am i doing.. my aunt say i didnt sign my tuition grant.. n he said tt.. ya.. i cant afford to waste the 3 years serving the bond.. den my aunt told him i go home late n sometime nv even go home.. stuff like tt..
den when i reached home.. gave him a call.. he jus shouted at me.. reminding me tt i'm a girl.. not allowing me stay outside the whole nite.. -.-'' i noe tt he wants to tell me more serious stuff.. like discussing abt my course.. n tt i need to go back to our company to help.. den he told me those shiet!.. like i'll care.. c'mon.. get a life man.. i only have 3 years to life like a normal young adult.. after 3 years need to go back n handle HUGE work load.. can't they jus let me enjoy my youth.. at least for this 3 years.. how i wish i wasn't in such a complicated family..

i'm bloated!

2005-06-25T21:08:00.000+08:00

met up with ting n dee today.. we saw hilda n xuan da.. today is their 1 year anniversary.. congrats.. =) after which we went chomp chomp.. oh yea.. the food were super nice.. but guess wad.. we ordered too much.. after eating.. we were like.. BLOATED!.. lolx.. den went to some void deck to sit down n chat.. did some catching up.. n thaught them how to float their hand.. very funny.. we laughed like shiet...

next week need to hand in lots of assignment/projects.. n is the revision week.. the following week is test week.. then term break.. shiet.. time really past super fast.. lolx..

monday sux!

2005-06-20T23:18:00.000+08:00

today's lecture was SUPER boring can.. the stupid lecturer dunno how to teach.. n her voice is so irritating.. monotone.. kill her pls.. tt 2 hours was practically a torture!

went to the library.. den saw this super cute guy.. mich n me were admiring.. lolx.. den aft time's up! need to go off for acc tutorial.. =X den while walking to the lift.. saw tt cute guy!.. lolx.. den we walk very fast.. took the same lift with tt cute guy.. i was standing beside the cute guy.. den mich diagonally infront of him.. the lift went down.. stop.. n there were ppl coming in.. so need to move in.. den i moved in la.. the idiot mich bang into me.. lolx.. i 'blocked' her way.. she wanted to stand beside tt cutie.. =X n she scolded me 'stupid bitch'! lolx.. i laughed like shiet.. n tt cute guy was talking to his frens.. say things like.. 'use soccer ball play table tennis" cant stand it.. laughed even more.. lolx..

after tt.. acc tut.. it's er.. do the journal till super pek chek.. aft tt.. we went to play pool.. i learn again.. cos i dunno how to play.. was v funny lor.. n there were 2 idiots keep on looking at us.. i cant be bothered la.. but it made yvonne super uncomfy.. kill tt 2 idiots.. wad's wrong with newbie playing?.. slap them..

super pissed...

2005-06-17T19:55:00.000+08:00

my mp3 hanged again!.. this is the 2nd time lor.. thx lor.. i really feel like dying can.. *crying like shit

tired...

2005-06-16T21:58:00.000+08:00

i'm super tired.. for the entire week.. havent been slpin enough.. my dark rings.. omg.. so so so tired.. feel like dying.. lolx.. n i'm seriously growing fatter.. ppl.. kill me..
anyway.. went to kbox with yvonne n michelle.. n yvonne showed us a haunted mtv.. i'm super freaked out now.. scared!!... eeeee... tml sch at 9.. uuuuuuggggghhhhhhhhh! have to wake up at 6!!!! y is the sch so far!?!?! *crying

super boooorreeeeddd...

2005-06-15T21:37:00.000+08:00

i am so super the bored!.. lolx.. nobody is online! pui!! where's everyone?...
anyway.. went to parkway to 'chill'.. actually did the comm skill thing.. compo!.. yucks! after tt walk ard.. bought a purple pants from e-base.. n a yo-yo clock.. it's super cute.. hehe.. after tt.. was on the bus.. on the way home.. dee called n ask me where am i.. end up ted n her came to find me at my blk.. chat a lil while.. ted is.. quite cute.. but short.. thou still taller than me... -.-'' humorous guy..

N tml got no APEL!.. cheeros!.. yeah.. got 2 hours break.. which mean i can rush my tutorial during break.. yeah.. cool.. ^^

OK! yvonne!..

2005-06-14T16:33:00.000+08:00

i'm updating for the sake of updating.. lolx.. yvonne keep on ask me to update lor.. lolx.. n she scold me stupid for not updating! wad a girl.. someone.. kill her.. nieway.. she's liked by percilla! congrats congrats!

at last!

2005-06-12T22:08:00.000+08:00

i seriously wants a zen neeon!!

2005-06-05T22:03:00.000+08:00

omg.. i saw this zen neeon.. i fell in love with it..!.. ARGHH!!! i want it so badly... but it's not out yet.. ughhh.. its super nice.. btw.. went out with michelle and yvonne jus now.. shahrul joined us but left early.. i spent alot again.. somebody.. jus kill me!?!?.. lolx.. came back home.. quickly gave my dad a call.. scared he's asleep.. ask him if he read my email.. he did! n he is buying me the mp3!!?!?!? muhahaha.. now.. i only have to wait for it to be out in the market.. =p

SHOPPING!

2005-06-04T00:47:00.000+08:00

went shopping yesterday.. with yvonne and michelle and samantha.. sam had to leave earlier.. bought LOTS of stuff.. everything was so heavy... eric didn't join us.. if not.. we can throw everything to him.. tsk.. anyway.. had lotsa fun.. thou it was pretty tiring.. went to haagen dazs after all the shopping.. we were laughing away there.. we behave like we were drunk after tt.. lolx..

went to chomp chomp with dee jus now.. woohoo.. ate LOTS!.. super nice.. the egg beancurd is so.. OMG!?!?!.. super delicious!!!!!!!!!!! not forgetting the stingray.. muhahaha... i'm growing fat.. kill me.. lolx..

cant be bothered~

2005-06-01T21:14:00.000+08:00

i was seriously having pms yesterday.. n suddenly lots of bad news came.. got so depressed.. went offline.. n cried everything out.. n slp aft tt..
initially thought the class was nice.. things keep on changing.. dunno wad to do.. learn to dun bother abt it.. CANT BE BOTHERED! ---> this is the right attitude.. lolx.. as long as i'm with sam.. yvonne and michelle.. tt's it!?!? ^^ i love them..

of cos not forgetting waiting sisters!.. i miss u gers SO MUCH!... love u all!

period

2005-05-31T21:57:00.000+08:00

recieved BAD news from dad.. my god!.. this is so sickening! recieved call from aunt.. den tell me this when we were abt to go pizza for dinner.. affected my mood SO MUCH!.. got so.. OMG! den was in deep thought.. den i crossed the road when the light jus turned red! n the cars wait for me to cross.. lolx.. super cool.. n went to pizza hut.. all the waiter bloody useless.. got me so pissed.. =X PERIOD!.. lolx..

=)

2005-05-29T02:16:00.000+08:00

woke up at 830 tis morning.. cant get back to slp.. my god.. so.. find things to waste my time.. played the piano.. watch vcd.. slowly prepare.. went to meet yvonne.. michelle and eric.. we went for lunch.. n did some shopping.. i bought an S&K pants.. after which we went for movie.. MONSTER-IN-LAW.. geez.. it was nice.. laughing throughout.. had quite a nice day.. =)

1st lesson....

2005-05-25T23:13:00.000+08:00

ok.. had our 1st lecture.. its CSA.. it sucks big time.. i feel like a total noob.. -.-''
the passwords are different for different things.. so mafan.. n the website down.. ok.. enough.. i jus hate IT so much..

after tt.. we went town AGAIN!.. lolx.. we took pictures!?!?.. michelle.. yvonne.. tim n me.. it was quite fun.. too bad samantha had to leave first.. nvm.. we'll have plenty of chance to take photos next time.. =D

the teacher needs to be slapped..

2005-05-24T19:08:00.000+08:00

its my 1st day of sch.. today only got 1 lesson.. AND! the teacher is on MC!?.. so we head for town.. went lido watch "the jacket" quite an ok show.. can watch..

I LOST MY VOICE!?!?!

2005-05-22T12:39:00.000+08:00

HAVING A terrible SORE THROAT.. coughing.. shouted too much on orientation.. totally lost my voice.. cant speak now.. so everyone.. pls dun call me.. i cant pick up.. ='(

gathered with sisters yesterday.. i miss them so much..

nieway.. went for the class gathering yesterday.. i was like suffering there.. i cant talk.. i cant sing.. i cant de siao ppl.. ppl joke i can only laugh.. cant share with others.. -.-'' shen bu ru shi.. my god... going wei hsin's house later on.. another suffering time.. cant talk.. cant sing.. cant de siao.. tsk tsk tsk.. i wanna die le la..

oh ya.. something very coincidental.. wanting got this classmate call freddie.. n wanting knew a guy call timothy thru freddie.. n this timothy guy is my classmate.. lolx.. gonna find a chnace.. 4 of us come out.. hehe..

i'm soooooo tireeeedddddddddd.......

2005-05-19T21:36:00.000+08:00

jus reached home not too long ago.. went for orientation.. kaoz... the sch is so big... i walk till i wanna die.. met my new classmates.. business course is so deprived of guys.. tsk tsk.. 24 in my class.. only 6 guys..

anyway.. met alot of frens.. 1 of my classmates live in sg north ave 4 also.. hehe.. so glad.. well.. i'm tired.................

i'm back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-05-17T23:17:00.000+08:00

i'm back! hehehehehe... came back via batam.. tsk tsk.. take plane.. take boat.. sian diao..

in the plane:
a couple sat beside me.. the guy is an ang moh.. the girl is indonesian.. kao.. very irritating.. the girl sit until dunno like wad.. the leg open so big.. keep on crossing to my territory.. den suddenly.. they unfasted their seat belt.. n carry the smelly feet up.. idiot man.. i felt like killing them..

boat:
alrite la.. but after tt.. i almost fainted... my god.. i've to carry my very heavy baggages n walk to the taxi stand which is soooooooooooo far away... 10000000000000001 miles away.. lolx.. my shoulder got 1 patch red cause of it.. idiot.. my shoulder like dislocating..

i'm comin~~

2005-05-16T09:34:00.000+08:00

i'm goin back tml.. i still have lots of things un-done.. i haven finish packing.. lolx.. i need to visit the dentist again.. god.. i jus hate doing it... soooooo painful... i need to go piano lesson again.. sian diao.. still got lots of things to buy.. lolx.. have to do it by TODAY!.. great.. lolx..

i cant slp last nie.. roll for at least an hour before i slept.. n keep on waking up.. i jus hate it when i cant slp.. it is so not winniefer.. lolx..

well.. anyway.. i'm goin back tml.. hehehehe.. so excited.. sch is opening..

1 more week...

2005-05-10T12:05:00.000+08:00

i'll be back real soon.. 1 more week.. hehe.. sch's opening.. FINALLY! long since came online.. i'm at my dad's office now.. hehe.. he's not in indo.. so i can come here anytime.. but rather lazy.. rather busy these few days..

busy biaing my sweater.. havent finish knitting it.. lolx.. i had been taking my own sweet time last time.. so now have to chiong.. doing the sleeve part.. i simply hate doing the sleeve.. damn!.. its so time consuming.. i think i wont want to knit sweater again.. i dont quite have the patience to do it.. tsk tsk tsk..

watching this korean series.. (sad sonata) its really sad... tsk tsk.. recommend u guys to watch.. especially to those whose tear sact had beed inactive for very long.. its time to activate it.. =p

i miss all the 'waiting' sisters.. i'm coming back.. wait for me.. lolx..

AHHHHH!

2005-04-16T14:06:00.000+08:00

finally get to update.. very tired these few days... especially after i came back from singapore.. thx to dee n ruey.. i have severe lack of slp man.. come back here keep on sleepin only.. till my dad scold me.. -.-'' den thursday nite went to help my uncle.. as a photographer.. =X take photos till i wanna slp... lolx.. i cant stop thinking about SLEEPING!!

went for drawing lesson on thursday too.. there's this cute guy tt caught my attention.. oops!~ heh heh.. he's very tall.. at least 185.. tanned skin.. shoulder length hair.. he sketches lotsa building stuff... i guess he's an interior designor or something.. den this thursday.. he sat beside me eh!?!?!.. i was the 1st to reach.. den he came second.. n he chose to sit beside me man.. =p oh god.. i guess i'm getting a bit crazy.. =X he's so cute man.. actually he is in the tuesday session.. he came for the thursday session jus to look at a small boy.. a very adorable little boy.. only 5 years old.. very chubby.. everyone in our class simply loves him.. his smile can help us de-stress.. so sweeeeeet~~ hehe.. ok.. enough bout tt..

the entire indonesia is facing lotsa natural disaster.. earthquakes everywhere... n got ice-rain.. bla bla bla.. n the newspaper is saying tt medan will be having a hurricane.. wad the hell.. tsk tsk.. n got 10+ volcanoes working.. gonna erupt anytime.. woohoo~ song bo... =X

back in sg

2005-04-05T23:51:00.000+08:00

i'm back here to get some documents done.. sian diao.. it was a last minute decision.. my bro told me abt the application thing to poly.. n the moment i noe it.. i booked ticket n flew back here..

den jus now reach tt time.. i tot no one came to fetch me.. i didnt see any1.. so hop on to a cab.. n when i turn on my mobile.. OOPS!.. dee is in the airport.. so go back airport meet up with her... den had dinner.. den jus now supper.. tsk tsk.. how to slim down.. =X

i cant resist the temptation of delicious food.. thou i'm having great difficulty in eating now.. my teeth hurts.. jus visited the stupid dentist.. n got a damn ulcer.. hurts like hell.. cause of the braces.. sian diao.. -.-''

i'm a goofy goober!?!?!...

2005-03-28T12:07:00.000+08:00

dee.. i cant tag ur board.. so i explain here.. =D
yesterday my internet connection was interrupted by my bloody cousin.. den re-connecting tt time.. power failure.. -.-'' my house the machine cant genearate enough electricity for so many electrical appliances.. so i've to sacrifice the computer..

hehe.. i feel a lil relieve now.. dee.. is u say de ah.. meet up regularly ah.. =)

watched the spongebob movie.. i simply love it.. thou a lil kiddy.. but.. i still love it.. lolx.. it makes me feel better..

I'M READY.. PROMOTION!.. I'M A GOOFY GOOBER YEAH!....

haiz...

2005-03-27T18:47:00.000+08:00

1st.. congrats to dee.. she got into the course she wanted.. but y is it nyp?.. ='( every1 got into nyp.. only me.. tp.. haiz....... disappointed sumhow.. thou tt's the course i want.. suddenly feel abit............. haiz....................

hehe..

2005-03-23T14:12:00.000+08:00

ok.. my mood jus changed from "grrrr" to "hehe"

"grrrr" because of my damn sister.. my mom not in indo.. so i've to take care of this idiot.. n teach her her sch work.. this week.. she jus got math test.. i sacrifice my tv time to teach her math yesterday nite.. P.S. it was my fav show. n sacrifice my sleep time.. wake up 5 in the morning to revise with her.. n she keep on reapeating her mistakes.. explain to her 10000000000000000000000001 times.. still wrong.. nvm.. i explain the 10000000000000000000000002nd time.. she say she got it le.. n i accompany her to sch. revise again.. she say she got it liao... AND!?!?!?!?!?! she came back only with a 95!?!?!?!?!?! cant even get a 100!!?!?!?!.. idiot.. n she say is i teach wrongly.. damn it man.. is she do it wrongly.. she do the things i told her not to.. n result was.. she got 95.. so.. i was damn pek chek.. my mom teach her.. she can get 100.. i teach her.. she get 95.. wtf is this man!?!?!.. grrrrrrr...

BUT!.. i came online.. checked my result.. i got into my 1st choice.. =D so not very pek chek.. moreover.. i banged the piano till hand very pain.. listen to very loud de music.. so now i'm fine.. =D i'll get her fixed by askin my dad to whack her.. muhahaha... no la.. kidding.. my dad whack ppl.. tsk tsk.. will die 1.. but the unfair thing is.. my brother n i oways kenna whack when we were kids.. but my sister.. was never hit by my dad ever since she was brought to this world.. -.-'' how come so unfair... well.. nvm.. forget abt it..

mommy not at home.. =(

2005-03-20T13:45:00.000+08:00

my mom left for japan yesterday.. i've to take care of my sis.. follow her everywhere.. tsk tsk.. like baby sitter like tt.. den have to give her tuition summore.. teacher.. tsk tsk.. where got like tt de..

unfair unfair.. hmm.. wednesday will noe whether i'll get in to the sch i wan.. hope so..

i'm dying here.. rotting here.. sian sian sian..

dee!! i miss u too.. lolx..

2005-03-16T14:46:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. where should i start?.. ok.. this monday.. tt ruey shyan called me.. i wasn't at home.. jus went off for my piano lesson.. den my mom pick up.. my mom wasn't in a v good mood to pick up fone calls.. cos she was bz at tt time... n phone calls came non-stop.. n when rui called.. it gave my mom a scare.. lolx.. tt rui spoke english.. den my mom answered in english lor.. den dunno how.. this idiot mistook my mom as my maid!?!?.. rui.. u die liao..

met dee online yesterday.. had a short conversation only.. she was goin out.. well.. i try to be online on saturday.. i dunno if i can.. cos my mom leaving for japan tt day.. n i've to take care of my lil sister... dun miss me too much la.. lolx.. take care huh.. oh ya.. my sis is fine now le la.. dun worry.. on the road to full recovery.. she is still as crazy like last time..

also met my elder brother n younger brother online yesterday.. had a nice chat with them.. haha.. it is rather complicating.. cos all of our names starts with W.. so we have to talk to each other using code.. n met my elder bro jus now.. we came to realise tt since 1997.. our entire family didnt have the chance to hang out together.. since then.. 6 of us.. my mom.. dad.. brothers n sister were not present at the same time n the same place.. how time flies.. haha.. but well well.. this year end we will meet again.. finally.. after 8 years.. tsk tsk..

tt's bout all.. take care everyone~~
hope to see rui n dee online the next time i log in.. =D

back for 5 days...

2005-03-11T11:51:00.000+08:00

came back on sunday.. nothing much on tt day.. den monday.. god!.. my lil sister was feeling not alright.. came back half way thru her lesson.. n guess wad.. like my case.. she kenna appendix infection too.. n had to go op tt nite.. n i accompanied her all way thru while she was in the hospital.. for 3 nites.. 1st nite were like hell man.. she jus came out of the op.. a normal person will not move.. if not the cut will be bloody paiful.. but this idiot... keep on turning here n there.. move here move there.. till midnite.. she woke me up very hour .. tsk tsk.. the 3 nites in hospital wasnt pleasant.. not enough slp.. @.@ well well.. she's ok now.. will recover fully in bout 2 weeks time.. tt's y i didnt get a chance to get online..

goin back again..

2005-03-06T03:39:00.000+08:00

hmm.. haven't been updating these few days.. cos its rather rare for me to be at home.. i only manage to slp at home for 3 nights.. the rest either at dee's place.. if not outside.. my aunt is so used to it.. =X n nearly everyday is spent with cyndee n ruey shyan.. sometime li ying.. sook mei.. it was rather diff for 8 of us to be present.. cos most are bz working.. jus now went to eat satay again.. we go there nearly everyday.. lolx.. n played cards.. halfway zhi hao join us.. den play till half way.. dee n me wan go toilet.. lolx.. cannot tahan anymore.. den go joanna's place.. 1st time.. she didnt open the door.. wah.. i omost faint there.. den go 2nd time.. she den open the door.. tsk tsk... well well.. nothing much to blog.. life nowadays are rather simple..

finally got my results..

2005-02-28T16:44:00.000+08:00

hmmm... results.. heng heng.. can make it.. of course.. my parents are NOT satisfied.. my dad still scold me.. tsk tsk.. haiyo.. cannot take it.. wah.. tt bio paper setter.. damn it man!?.. must be because of that question... C6 only lor.. grrr... where got like tt de...

then the bloody com.. cant log-in the singpass.. sian diao.. aiyo... nvm.. update next time..

backie!

2005-02-24T22:21:00.000+08:00

hehe.. reached singapore this evening.. tsk tsk.. the plane delay an hour.. sian 1/2 wait till so long.. grrr.. den saw a shuai ge... tsk!.. wasted.. he sit same row as me.. but i seat is A.. his F.. wah kao.. where got like tt 1.. dui.. den he oso v guo fen.. when come out tt time.. wan chop passport.. he cut my queue =.-'' den still smile at me.. call me go the other queue.. wad the hell is this man!? haiz..

anyway.. dee, sook mei n li ying came to fetch me.. muhahaha.. 1st thing we do is EAT!? hehehe... den they all send me home.. now.. nothing to do.. =X

visiting sg soon..

2005-02-15T13:37:00.000+08:00

result will be out soon.. heard some say 25th some says 28th.. dui.. so scared.. the moment i think of it.. hair will stand.. my heart will JUMP.. so so so scared neh..

it was v.day yesterday.. my dad's bday too.. according to the lunar calender.. so qiao.. my mom bought my dad's fav mocca cake.. my cousins gave my pap black forest de cake.. the bank give chocolate/cheese cake.. n lots of not-yet-finished cakes from chinese new year.. these few days almost every meal got eat cake.. nv grow fat also cannot.. tsk tsk.. i'm putting on weight.. grr.. thx to chinese new year.. still got so much of the not-finished new year goods.. cannot resist.. dui.. shang nao jing..

thx to cny again.. i was dragged by my aunt n my mum to go to the temple n chant for the whole day.. it was so tiring.. my back bone n my thighs were so painful.. cny here is so MA FAN!!.. dui~

chi new year is coming!?!?!?!

2005-01-30T13:23:00.000+08:00

chinese new year is jus round the conner... my mom is so bz preparing for this.. n i've to help out.. therefore, i'm also bz.. =X lolx.. have to buy this n that.. spring cleaning is such a chore.. the damn house is so big.. have to clean almost EVERYTHING!?!?.. my mom so tiki.. wanna do everything on our own.. she say if ask others to do it.. they wont do it so well.. so have to do everything on our own... -.-'' n these few days we are bz bout flowers.. suddenly turned to a garderner..

life here is so simple.. not challenging at all.. sian sian sian.. everyday go for lessons.. play the piano.. some workout.. eat n slp n watch tv.. getting tired of it.. thou it's very comfortable.. everything dump to my maid to do.. but i jus dun like it.. . . . . ughhh...

my lil sister

2005-01-22T20:54:00.000+08:00

=D

2005-01-22T20:52:00.000+08:00

my garden

2005-01-22T20:51:00.000+08:00

guzheng my mom plays

2005-01-22T20:50:00.000+08:00

2005-01-22T20:49:00.000+08:00

my pond in the backyard.. its nice.. but... there isnt any fish in there.. so.. it is as good as useless.. =X

2005-01-22T20:46:00.000+08:00

my lil cousin i dote most.. =)

i'm so bored...

2005-01-22T19:39:00.000+08:00

life here is just so PLAIN!.. i'm so bored.. haiz.. n e security here is so bad.. so many ppl kenna kidnapped nowadays... some kenna killed... some eyes kenna digged out.. bla bla bla.. woots.. scary man.. i've got nothing better to do here................... so sian.....

. . ..

2005-01-15T10:42:00.000+08:00

my cousin got married!.. =D congrats congrats.. it is such a tiring process.. i see le i dun feel like getting married.. wednesday nite.. thrusday morning n friday nite.. all v bz... wednesday nite was still ok.. i was there to eat only.. n watch performance.. then thrusday morning.. have to go temple.. to witness them sign the letters.. the procedure was totally funny.. it is something like in the tv shows.. the couple exchange ring in the church.. bla bla bla.. den the pastor will say some lame stuff.. likewise.. in the temple.. the monk chant.. den ask them this n that.. in MANDARIN!.. the funny thing is that my cousin n his wife dun quite understand mandarin.. n their answer was so -.-'' lolx.. den next we go the couple's new house!.. for some traditional ceremony.. oh my god!... the house is like WWWOOOOOOOOOOWWWWWWW!~~~ its like a palace man!.. everything is so well done!.. so italian style.. damn!.. i oso wan find a rich husband n live in tt kinda house.. oh man.. is like those house in tv.. those rich ppl live de.. so!.... (i've got no words to describe) i jus love tt house man.. n the master bedroom is so nice.. their toilet so cute.. the door n everything is transparent.. n they have got a walk-in wardrobe.. wah seh.. its beyond my vocab to describe how nice the house is..

n follow by yesterday nite.. my mom n i went to my teacher's house to start make-up n make our hair in the morning.. seh.. my face was like TOTALLY different.. den come back home in the afternoon.. start preparing here n there.. help my sis make up.. bla bla bla.. den go to the restaurant in the evening.. i was in-charge to ask the guests to write down their name.. den write code on the ang-paos they give.. so that my cousin can check who give how much.. lolx.. den give the guests little souveniers.. den have to keep on smiling.. seh.. tiring.. den after tt have to start eating!.. cannot eat.. thou i was SOSOSOSO hungry.. n my gastric start playing with me.. cos have to go up stage n SING!.. lolx.. its like.. -.-'' i was so nervous.. in front of almost a thousand ppl.. whom half of them noe my dad.. so scared i will sia suay.. throw my parent's face.. go up stage my feet trembling like hell... lolx.. den alot of ppl give me ang bao.. lolx... quite fun.. thrilling i should say.. so scared will zao sia.. fall down.. bla bla bla... lolx.. heng nv.. den came back home.. my sis n i compare who's ang bao more.. who got more money =X n!.. i won.. muhahaha.. tt's bout all.. these few days all bz abt this...

a great chance for my family to all gather.. my cousins all change alot le.. getting more yan dao n more chio.. haha..

sick sick sick

2005-01-11T13:31:00.000+08:00

i'm sick!?!?.. dying soon... ='( fever up to 38.3 degree.. headache.. bla bla bla.. so scared i might get dengue fever.. Medan got quite a no of ppl die of tt.. lolx.. i'm dying!?!?.. =X my cousin getting married this week.. how can i fall sick today?!.. ughh.. >.<

bad bad bad news.. tsk.. 2005 seems to be another bad year.. my cousin getting married.. should be happy.. but! his brother yesterday met an accident.. his car banged a girl.. that girl flew out of her bf's bike when the bf was trying to prevent banging into another bike.. the sudden stop cause the gf to fall out of the bike n lie on the floor.. she was lying on the floor.. it was kinda not very possible for a driver to detect her.. so my cousin's car kenna her head.. my cousin den brought her to the hospital.. but it was too late.. she died.. ah mi to fo..

kk.. i'm feeling so sick.. gonna stop here..

finally......

2005-01-10T19:35:00.000+08:00

weeee~~~ i finally get my very own com in my house!?!?!?! i asked my dad the very next day i reached indo... n he kept on forgotting till now den i get it... wad the -.-'' but nvm... i finally got it...

life here is so plain.. i only go piano lessons... make-up lessons... knitting lessons.. karaoke lessons n aerobic lessons... n the only entertainment i get is to watch tv -.-''' so wu liao huh...

oh yeah.. i went for bracing.. have my braces on.. so damn the painful... i got ulcers all over in my mouth... ='( n i cant eat chewing gums!?!?! ='( grr... my mom insisted tt i get it done this period.. so have to...

n! now come the interesting part... the earthquake?!?!?! heheheh.. all of u must be praying tt i die rite? BUT! nah... i'm FINE!?!?! =X i was sleeping when the earthquake took place.. my bed was shaking.. n i CONTINUED sleeping.. =p i did feel it shaking.. but i tot it was my younger sis/bro disturbing me.. so i didnt care u see... lolx... while the rest of my family is awake.. my mom tot shegot low blood pressure.. my maid wanna vomit... my sis prayed... my aunt was in the toilet, n the door was opened by itself n swing like dunno wad.. lolx.. my dad n my younger bro was is the swimming pool.. the earthquake created waves in the pool.. they were like swimming in the sea.. lolx.. everything is fine here in medan =) sorry to have disappointed u all!? so sad..... =X lolx..

but this tsunami took away so many lifes in aceh area... which is real near to medan.. the affected areas are Nanggroe Aceh Darussallam (NAD) n Sumatera utara.. Medan is under Sumatera Utara.. but the real disaster fell on NAD.. so many ppl died.. but it was kinda retribution.. dun really symphatise them.. they deserves it.. god is punishing them.. those bad guys deserves to die.. but not the innocent ppl... sad for those innocent peeps.. but those bad guys.. orbe good... the discriminate chinese like dunno wad... wad the hell.. all the food sent there are not distributed equally.. chinese have to pay for it.. n some of the bastard indonesians(not chinese) dun allow them to eat... wtf... these are the ppl who should die.. worst till, the US armies sent there to clear the carcases were shot by those heartless shiet while clearing soldier's dead body.. wad the hell is this man.. they then deserves to die.. n the president is stupid.. n the vice president (jusuf kalla) is a bad guy.. heartless creature.. an idiot who dun even noe how to take care of this desaster.. have to wait for other countries to help them.. wad the hell.. i'm so ashamed to be an indonesian.. ruled under such an ass... i go be president oso win them.. pui!.. they suck like hell!!?!?!?!?!....

n another weird stuff tt happened in indo.. there was a giant tt appeared in asahan (my mom's kampong) tt giant was seen by a lil kiddo.. n it left big foodsteps.. a metre long..

ok.. i shall stop here.. dun miss me too much.. guys.. lolx.. dun puke huh... =X

prom picx

2004-11-26T11:44:00.000+08:00

here are some of the prom pic.. christopher jus sent me.. the rest,, i'll wait for others to send den i post it here.. =D nice not?.. leave some comments.. lolx

classmates.. =D

2004-11-26T11:36:00.000+08:00

from left.. jinglong, eugene, gadaffy, hakim, shunqiang, tzehau, vernon, christopher, ronia, maybelin, me, huimei, yenxin n christ!?

maybelin, clarence n me!?

2004-11-26T11:33:00.000+08:00

maybelin is so slim now!? =D

shun qiang n myself

2004-11-26T11:32:00.000+08:00

look at tt guy.. like wanna die like tt.. lol

ming kai n me

2004-11-26T11:31:00.000+08:00

i look funny in tt pic.. but.. nvm.. lol

Daniel n I

2004-11-26T11:26:00.000+08:00

god. he's real tall..i'm in heels, yet he is still taller.. sigh....

i'm leaving tml...

2004-11-26T10:34:00.000+08:00

yesterday's prom was.. hmm.. alrite.. after prom maybelin, christ, huimei, yenxin n i went to chomp chomp for supper.. lolx.. in tt outfit!... den we go there.. all the stall holder looking at us.. lolx.. bth.. we go buy stuff.. they'll comment this n that.. wahahaha.. den give us a bigger serving.. lolx.. bth.. den went home.. =)

hehe.. i'm leaving tml.. laguage packed half way only.. later still going out.. haha.. lazy to pack man.. got 100001 things to pack!.. grr.. my clothes n shoes are like!?!?! how many of them? 121984562773950472274905... tsk!.. nvm.. i'll try to squeeze in everything later on.. lolx..

this is to christ, huimei, oxy, christopher.. eh.. the photos.. send me leh.. lolx.. if u guys dun see me online.. attatch the files n send me via e-mail.. thx lots man.. =D if this msg cant reach these peeps.. eh.. xinyi.. help me inform them this piece of info.. lolx.. =D thx ah.. hehe..

prom is TONIGHT!

2004-11-25T13:10:00.000+08:00

ok.. prom is tonight.. n my stomach is giving me prob.. i've been visiting my toilet for quite a no of times... tsk tsk.. later prom better dun giv me prob!

@-@

2004-11-24T19:33:00.000+08:00

oOOooh~ my eyes are like @-@ man.. muhahahaha.. didn't slp last 2 nites.. but slept yesterday morning.. so in this 48 hours.. i slept bout 7 hours... its really bad to my skin.. my eye.. be it the eye bag or dark rings.. n the worst things is!.. PROM is tml?!

ok.. talking bout prom.. i'm rather prepared for it.. =D ok.. start with the 22nd.. after Os... meet up ronia to find stuff.. ronia got her dress ready le.. so she's only searching for her heels.. while me!.. dress.. heels.. make-up.. all not done.. =X we started shopping round orchard.. went to topshop.. nah.. nothing there.. den went to scott's plaza.. OoOh.. i went into tt "perfect in black" i got so damn the confused man.. hmmm.. everything is black.. n i cant see anything.. den there's a nice dress.. but the cloth involved is quite "ALOT".. i mean ALOT u noe.. =X lolx.. den got outa scotts plaza.. den go far east.. went into shibuya.. tried quite a number of dresses.. got so confused again.. dunno which 1 to choose.. den finally decided on the one i wan.. we took bout 2 hours to find tt.. lolx.. den after tt go eat something.. n walk ard far east.. n we met maybelin n oxy.. n join them.. hehe

after tt went wisma to find heels.. walk ard.. den dunno y me n ronia were like walking the wrong way all the time.. lolx.. we actually walk pass the underpass for bout 4 or 5 times.. can imagine how tired our feets n legs are.. walk like hell man.. oxy left cos she too tired.. so left with 3 of us.. den we entered "charles n kieth" n it was darn crowded.. found the heels tt we like.. BUT!.. no size.. wad the ...

den we headed to suntec.. pass by city link.. enter "charles n kieth" again.. n this time round.. the size fits.. but i started to not like that pair of heels.. cos its too high.. n dunno y.. i'm damn the unstable wearing tt.. while ronia got the pair she wanted.. she had 2 choices.. den the pair tt was not chosen caught my attention.. lolx.. den now.. dun have my size T.T while maybelin still thinking whether or not to get that pair.. den go suntec find the other charles n kieth branch.. n we were mislead by the idiotic map.. we walk round the whole suntec for nothing.. when the destination is jus ard the starthing point.. tsk tsk tsk.. n we were panicking tt it was too late.. scared cant get it.. den rush like mad =X like 3 siao cha bo.. haha.. n my feet were like.. my god.. poor thing.. =X but we finally got it la.. wad a thrilling shopping trip we had tt day.. lolx..

ok.. enough bout shopping.. we were suppose to go to sch today to get back our stuffs.. report book..testimonials.. hmm.. something exciting happened.. =X cos wasnt home yesterday nite.. so when i reached home this morning.. WOOH!.. K.O man.. slept.. i told my aunt to wake me up at 10.. den she came to wake me up at 10.. but i didnt.. 1015 again.. i continued sleeping.. n again.. n i still persist on sleeping.. n finally!.. i woke up!.. at 1117 which is 2 min later than the reporting time.. my goodness! i rushed like mad.. n while rushing i scolded my aunt.. OOPS!.. i accused here.. lolx.. n got some scolding.. but do u tink i care at tt moment?.. i rushed like hell.. n the cab wasnt there for me.. instead the bus was here.. so boarded the bus.. n saw 3 peicaians!?.. wooosh... relieved* lolx.. john was 1 of them.. so talk to him.. wahaha.. his reason for being late is tt he got the time wrong.. =X 1115 he tot 1130.. wahahaha.. den reach sch.. n got everything done..

den went to get some accessories to decorate my prom stuff.. with xin yi.. den jus now she came over to my place.. test out the prom outfit.. make up.. accecories.. bla bla bla.. lolx.. n den we did some handicraft things.. thx to her.. she helped me make tt flower.. nice... hehehe.. thx ger!.. n again.. she didnt forget to make fun of me.. cos the way i communicate with my lame aunt is like damn the hilarious to her.. she keep on laughin -.-'' n made fun of my dog too.. tsk tsk tsk.. n she threaten to share the joke with the rest tml.. my god.. T.T lolx.. nvm la huh.. laugh only ma.. lolx.. i wont lose anything..

tt's bout it la.. i'm like dead tired.. @-@

tired tired tired

2004-11-20T23:30:00.000+08:00

went out today.. =X hehehe.. tired.. got budak pantai's BUDAKUMENTARY!?.. heh heh.. its v nice man.. n so heng i got the autographed version.. =D

ughh..

2004-11-20T01:27:00.000+08:00

i'm so in a BAD MOOD!?!?!... dunno y.. for no reason.. haiz.... i'm so bored.. so tired... so fed-up... n my stupid cough is still haunting me!... wad the hell is this!?!?........ >.< grrr.........

i hate this!... aku benci kepada dunia ini!?!?!?!.. ughhh.......... no life... grrr.... n now!?.. my aunt is nagging me.. ask me go slp!.. oh common.. this is MY life man.. i dun even have the rights to choose whether to slp anot? goodness... NOBODY!? can control my life man!.. i choose the things i wanna do MYSELF!? the more ppl dun wan me to do something.. THE MORE I WANNA DO IT!.. wassup with them man.. grr.. nobody can ever control my life.. no.. i'll not allow anyone to do so... never.. i'm so PISSED... i jus dun understand y... they are being "caring" huh.. oh common.. i dun appreciate!.. i will slp when i feel like!... if i dun.. no use forcing me.. lie there n stare at the ceiling?.. isnt it the SAME?..

wahahaha..

2004-11-19T17:04:00.000+08:00

i hate blogger.com!.. cant publish my post AGAIN!!!.. -.-'' nvm... type AGAIN then -.-'' grr...

ok!.. so today.. wah sian.. waste time.. lolx.. 1st.. went to nan qiao to help my cousin check his streaming results.. he got into triple sci class man.. but so wad?.. triple sci doenst mean very great.. lolx..

after tt went compass help my stupid brother get his textbooks.. wa lau.. i omost finish my o levels liao.. still have to go carry textbooks.. wad is this man.. but nvm.. its for my bro =.-'' who ask me to be his sis.. so go in the popular.. there is a 'station' where some of the staffs help ppl find their wanted textbooks.. so i pass the booklist n everything to the guy.. n he went to check for me.. den got me everything.. so go queue.. while queueing, reviewed the books.. tsk tsk.. he mixed up physics and chemistry man.. lolx.. so i went back n approach another guy.. tell him the prob.. den till half, the previous guy come kpo.. lolx.. den got everything right.. go back queue AGAIN!.. n when it was my turn.. SUDDENLY!.. tt same guy came n take charge of the counter.. lolx.. must be interested in me man.. wahahaha.. nah.. kidding.. =X its coincidetal i guess.. haha.. but he's cute la =X OOPS!.. wahahahaha..

after the book thing.. acc my aunt to the library.. she look for her chinese novels... haha.. den i beside her kpo kpo.. see books.. wahahaha.. den she start complainging tt i dun read story books.. lolx.. oh common.. i hate it man.. =X

den after that.. walk ard.. try spotting a nice dress for prom.. see see see.. bingo!.. got 1.. haha.. go try it out.. my aunt say nice.. but i tink it was 'ok' only.. so didnt get it straight away.. decided to go look for better ones.. if not, get it liao see nicer ones, i will b v kek sim man.. haha..

after the dress thing.. my aunt go see GOLD!?!?!.. wahahaha.. she getting a gift for my cousin.. cos he getting married next year.. so i see see also... wahahaha.. she listened to my suggestions man.. =X i say nice.. den she got it!.. wahahaha.. after which we went home.. wasted my day.. tsk tsk..

oh ya!.. i'm so puzzled by the 'anonymous' person who tagged my board man.. can reveal ur true identity? haha.. n explain wad were u trying to say?.. cos i've got no idea wad's going on man.. too stupid =X haha.. thanks!

crap crap crap.. enjoy reading =D

2004-11-19T01:05:00.000+08:00

ok!... i'm here to BLOG!... yes.. y?.. cos i've got nothing better to do.. apart from tt.. i tink i need to express myself... no where to.. so HERE!... haha..

lets start with.. uhmm.. MYSELF!.. haha.. ok.. wassup with myself? haha.. guess many noe bout the "friendship" thing i was in.. as in.. i was dumped.. haha.. wad a word.. but anyway.. i've learnt quite a bit from it.. or did i confused myself even further?.. haha.. i dunno.. 1st. i learn tt the word TRUST has a v strong meaning.. i dun mean trus t= strong (tt's lame) i'm trying to point out tt this word means alot.. (crap) how do u exactly define this word?.. u believe fully in someone?.. how do u show tt u really trusted tt someone?.. be careful when u use tt word.. cos when u really trust someone.. there shouldnt be any suspicion on the person isnt it? well.. n regarding trust again.. be careful when u 'trust' someone.. is tt someone really worth ur trust?.. why would u wanna trust tt someone? so moral is.. THINK before u tell someone u trust them!..

n the part on trusting the wrong person.. hmmm.. this is a tuff 1.. how do u choose the right 1 to trust? this bothers me man.. ever since tt incident.. i've learn to not trust any1 too easily.. but hey.. if u dun trust anyone.. u cant depend on urself for everything!?!?!... so how?.. at times.. u really have to trust the 1 who dun seem worthwhile.. but! u have to! (chim rite?.. =X) i'm in a dilemma too.. in fact.. i sound v stupid here.. but this question is so difficult to answer.. till ME! cant ans.. (as if i'm v clever -.-'')

so how do u choose the right one to trust? (enlighten me with ur opinion =D i'll appreciate)

ok.. next.. other than trust... i mean, enough of tt.. ok.. another 1 is y ppl oways potray themselve as very nice, flawless creature.. all the blame pushed to others? p.s: this is not something i learnt from tt incident, its haunting me for v long. okok.. so y? my explanation, (not the sure correct 1) is tt... ppl are jus afraid to let ppl see their weakness.. regarding this pt!.. i'm strongly against it!.. y? cos everyone makes mistakes n nobody is perfect!.. it is a fact!.. u cant expect urself to be some1 perfect, neither can others... BUT!.. but but but.... ppl jus dun like to show their flaw to others.. everyone wants to give everyone a good impression.. such tt we distort facts to show ppl the nice side of us.. we twist the words n phrase everything so nicely.. tt u seem nice.. very dishonest!... low-class.. but hey.. who dont do it?.. i do it too.. (but dun worry, i'm trying to change, keyword is TRYING)

the more unforgivable side is when u push all the blame to the other party.. yup!... tis is crude.. u dun admit ur wrongs, fine.. but u shud not push all the blame to the other person.. n gives others a false impression tt the person is a bitch/bastard!.. even if they are.. u need not make it worse by emphasising it isn't it.. but y do ppl do so?... easy~ simply cos they wan to stress tt they are good.. by having a contrast, let ppl compare how bad the other guy is n how good u are.. so even if u aint tt great.. u'll seem damn the great... i admit!.. i did tt too... but now, i came to realise how despicable this act is.. so i'm seriously going to change.. i dun promise tt i wont do it again.. but i'll do my best to not do it again...

so the moral is!... learn to admit ur mistakes, i believe u deserved to be forgiven if u do.. more than those who try to hide.. n dun push blames on others!.. i noe its tuff.. but hey, no harm trying =D

ok.. next!... wad this phrase means? forgive and forget this phrase small kiddo also noe.. but do u really understand?.. n most importantly, do u noe how to do so?.. perhaps u can fulfil the forgiving part.. how bout the forget?... this is a great challenge man.. i believe no one has really forgotten someone's mistake.. did u?.. well, i didnt.. we might seem as thou we forgotten it.. but when the someone made another mistake, do u realise u will rag up all the old mistakes tt are supposedly forgotten?... if u don't.. i tell u den, u do!.. try observing ppl ard u.. they do such things quite often.. i do so.. ppl ard me do so too.. the forgetting part.. i believe no one will ever attain tt level of understanding.. cos we are all human!.. when we are angry.. we turn into heartless beasts that says the most harsh things u can ever spout (even if u dun mean it) . everyone do so.. we cant control it.. but the one listening to these harsh words cannot ignore it!.. even if he understand tt the one scolding is really fumed.. but the harsh words are simply to hard on him tt the understanding part lose out.. so wad can we do?.. nothing.. this are very humane kinda thing.. u cant control ur feelings... ur brain are easily defeated by ur heart... most of us follow our heart more than our brain.. agree?.. but of course.. we MUST forgive ppl for their mistakes.. unless u dun wan to be forgiven by others when u make mistake, u should do so.. the forgetting part.. thou u cant forget everything.. try to at least SHOW tt u forgotten.. it is v comforting for the 1 who made mistakes...

if u cant do all of the above.. u cant forgive.. cant forget.. u lost trust.. u feel like the idiot is a complete asshole.. AT LEAST! dun influence others!... u have got ur own way of thinking and seeing things.. others have theirs too.. but ppl are easily influenced by words.. u can tell ppl how fucked-up that asshole is.. but tt is enough.. dun go add on.. n make up ur own bloody story to decieve others into having the same mindset as yours... tt is so.. but even if u do.. i could understand y.. cos u are simply too furious.. again.. try la huh.. try not to do such things..

and!.. dun tackle ppl's weak point!.. tt is so so So sO SOO.... i dunno how to describe.. wad i exactly mean is like.. u noe tt person really well.. n u noe wad is the weakest point of his/her.. n kill tt person with tt man... QIAN WAN!.. BU YAO GONG JI REN ZUI CHUI RUO DE DI FANG!.. no no no.. nv..

i still have alot to say.. but.. heh heh.. i cant do it in ONE update.. So!.. i got to end here..

before i end.. all tt i've said its jus some rubbish tt came out from my dumb brain.. i've got nothing better to do.. i cant slp.. so i'm doing this.. =X if u find it not interesting at all.. dun read then... =X n for all the things i point out.. i'm not tt great to have said all the correct things.. so if u have any disagreements.. disapprovals.. i welcome any rebuttals man.. =D in fact, greatful to have cos u READ!.. okok.. tt's not the main point.. n of course.. wad eva i wrote.. i might have done the same kinda mistakes.. can shoot my back by saying i also did so.. haha.. but eh.. i'm trying to change k.. =D oh ya!.. if u dun understand.. nvm.. haha.. i'm not some great writer.. my english is near to fail.. all the things are not structured nicely.. wadeva came to me i jus type.. so FORGIVE me for wasting ur time.. hehe.. but if u find it nice.. of course.. i welcome encouragements too.. muhahahaha.. ok.. i sound so like a fool rite now.. i shall continue to be one.. next time.. so stay tune... n check out the next episode of RUBBISH!!.. yeah man..

left with LAST paper!

2004-11-18T18:59:00.000+08:00

yup!.. O is ALMOST over!... left with tt stupid paper... make it on monday -.-'' wad the... nvm... gonna be over real soon... prom!.......... heh heh heh... =X ok.. watched shutter!... wooo.. spooky.. haha.. hmmmmm... i'm tired.. lazy to type..

hmmmm....

2004-11-16T20:15:00.000+08:00

geog paper tml.. =.-'' the 7 days rest... make me kinda lose contact with the exam feeling.. lolx.. had been waking up very late these few days.. tml still have to wake up at 6... hopefully i can.. haha.. hmm.. geog.. shouldn't be a problem.. =D hopefully.. must score in humans.. to get into my course.. hehe.. so hopefully i score huh..

after geog.. A math paper 2.. hmm.. hopeless 1.. lolx.. hopefully i pass huh.. =X den rest for 3 days.. den last paper.. i'm looking forward to tt day.. cos after that can go SHOPPING!.. nah.. go get my prom dress.. =D hehehehe.. prom nite coming real soon....... i'm so so so looking forward to it.. =p

=D

2004-11-15T19:10:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. at last!.. i studied.. =X did VERY lil of math.. n studied geog.. hehe.. i dunno y.. i feel v tired these few days.. body aching like dunno wad.. esp the neck part.. n my shoulder too.. my god.. my spine feel like as thou it wanna break.. how i wish there's someone to massage for me.. haha.. maybe it will happen when i visit www.dream-on.com?.. lolx..

i'm so so so tired............ be it physically.. o mentally.. haiz....................................................................

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri

2004-11-14T16:40:00.000+08:00

-.-'' 2nd time uploading this.. sometihng wrong with the server -.-'' nvm.. okie.. 1st.. Selamat hari raya aidilfitri.. =D okok.. 2nd... i must proudly announce tt i have not been touching any books these few days.. =D except that i had tuition yesterday.. lolx.. 3rd.. its the bio paper.. something really wrong with it.. lolx.. the eye qn.. is set wrongly!.. n can u believe it? it went under MASS production.. well well.. we paid for tt paper... they should not make such mistakes!.. no way man.. nono.. hmmm.. cambridge better give me back the 7 marks.. =D tt's enough to compensate =D oh ya.. cambridge, pls dont! sack tt setter.. cos.. hey.. everyone makes mistakes.. n since it is hari raya aidfilfitri.. we must forgive =D so.. dont sack tt person la.. poor thing.. lolx..

hmm... my maternal side aunt came to see me today =D this aunt dote me MOST!... muhahaha.. y?.. i dunno.. lolx.. ppl claimed tt i look like her alot when i was a kiddy... but good things jus dun last long.. she moved from Medan (my hometown) to Jakarta (capital of indonesia) when i was still young la n eventually i came to singapore to study.. so there is hardly chance for me to see her.. the previous time i saw her was last year.. to attend her wedding.. =D her husband pass my test.. lolx.. he is great man.. his japanese is so damn the pro.. haha.. n he is the 1st guy i see whom will accompany his wife to go shopping.. happily.. without any complains.. this kinda guy go where find.. extinct le man.. nono.. since i saw 1.. that means there are.. so the term used must be endangered... lolx.. Oh ya!.. my aunt asked me whether i have got bf not.. with tt cheeky smile.. lolx.. bth her man.. she love to ask me tt qn... wahahaha.. but of cos i said no.. cos i dun.. but even if i have.. i oso wont admit i guess.. lolx.. thou my mom allows me to have 1.. but hey. . i jus feel its quite weird... lolx.. i'm still considered young.. altho 16 is not very protected by law.. wahahahaha.. but i'm still young.. lolx.. i'm young!?!?!?!?! wahahahaha...

I LOVE BUDAK PANTAI!!..

hmmm..

2004-11-12T20:30:00.000+08:00

hmmmm........ dun wanna blog.. lazy......... =X tml got tuition!!.. -.-'' nvm.. go watch tv!~ =D

slack slack slack!!

2004-11-11T21:28:00.000+08:00

muhahaha.. i didnt touch any books today man!!!.. =D slack the whole day at home.. watch tv.. did something to my blog.. muhahaha..

but good things wont stay long.. lolx.. tml have to start revising le.. left with 3 more papers..
1.geog
2.A math paper2
3.sci MCQ

well well.. y must the sci paper be on the 22nd eh?.. grr.. cant it be at 19th?.. grrr.. stupid timetable.. grr..

hmmm.......

2004-11-10T20:15:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. thou its my birthday today.. n i'm really suprised tt lotsa ppl rememberred n wished me happy birthday.. should be very happy.. BUT!.. i'm not.. -.-'' something is missing.. dun feel good man.. dun feel rite.. ughhh.. perhaps its my flu.. i've been caughing for like 2 weeks.. had flu for almost a week.. blowing nose throughout while doing my papers.. o perhaps some other reasons.. haix.. feeling a bit..... ... .. .. .... .. .. arghh..

i'm so sorry to those ppl ard me.. i must have irritate u peeps quite a bit.. lolx..

n once again.. thx to every person who rememberred and wished me happy birthday!.. xie xie...

happy birthday to me!!.. haha..

2004-11-10T19:19:00.000+08:00

hehe.. i'm 16!!!... =D finally.. haha.. its indonesia's hero day today.. muhahaha.. (observe 1 min of silence to commemorate) lolx.. i'm very touched man.. lotsa ppl wished me happy birthday this morning.. n i mean morning.. its o level yet so many ppl rmb.. even miss sae.. rmb.. haha..

but unfortunately.. i've to "celebrate" it with my bio papers -.-''.. haha.. paper 1 was easy.. all from tys.. but paper 2... haiz.. ah mi to fo.. i only hope for a pass for bio le la.. the paper 2.. i wrote rubbish man.. haix.. left with 3 papers!.. woohoo!~~~ after tt prom.. after tt i'm GONE!.. wahahahaha... =X

sian..

2004-10-29T19:10:00.000+08:00

had tuition jus now.. a bit sian.. the teacher talk a lil too much.. but its ok.. hmm.. my bro's result is -.-'' oh my god.. v lan.. bless him for his streaming.. see where he will be streamed to..

nothing much bout today.. lazy to blog.. so update next time =D

prawn?...

2004-10-28T20:13:00.000+08:00

ok.. today's bio prac is a total shock.. they gave prawn!... sucks man... i was like memorising fruits and flower's labeling.. n here comes prawn -.-'' luckily i'm not allergic to prawns.. in fact i love prawns.. therefore.. when it come to drawing... it was ok.. n noe wad?!... my teacher sucks!... the bloody lab tech didn't give me the styrofoam board for me to pin the prawn's tail.. it wasn't stated tt we will be given.. of cos i dunno -.-'' bloody hell.. when i approach my teacher.. u noe wad?!!?!?!.. she blamed me... sucks man... arghh!!.... well nvm.. i'm jus expressing my agony towards her irresponsiveness... my god.. is she careless nv give me.. den blame me?.. she nv even tell us tt it will be given lor.. i got to know only AFTER the stupid practical.. I HATE TT FATSO!!!!... bloody hell... sucker... but it wasnt really tt essential.. it is actually not necessary.. well well.. but no matter is it needed o not!... i paid for tt exams.. how could they give me a styrofoam less?... n that teacher!... gave me tt fu**ing attitude.. its ATROCIOUS!... if i had the time jus now.. i would LODGE a complain to the science department.. but too bad i dun hav the time.. n i cant be bothered to have anything to do with tt sucker -.-'' ughh!.....

this is NOT THE FIRST time she offended me.. the prelim practicle.. her instructions weren't clear.. i made a feedback.. n u noe wad she said?.. she said my ANG MOH not good.. oh common.. if her ANG MOH is tt great.. she wouldn't have used the word ANG MOH.. bloody hell.. n it wasn't only me tt mis-intepereted the question.. even our class english DISTINCTION de oso got it wrong!... wad the f***!.. it jus shows tt the prob dun lie on me.. but tt bloody teacher.. who claim tt her english is tt POWDERFUL.. when she speaks PERFECT SINGLISH!... n give misleading instructions.. stupid teacher.. -.-'' she is not fit to be my teacher..

here is another more stupid 1... my practical book.. i labelled the diagram wrongly.. she marked me correct -.-'' every1 oso like tt.. wad the f*** stupid teacher..

well.. nvm.. i no need to be under her anymore.. =D tt's the good news...

after prac.. went to meet jh to catch the grudge.. lolx.. its like an explanation for JUON1... quite scary.. *to me.. =X it was a great exercise for my heart thou... lolx.. tt's bout it for today.. i feel so great after criticising tt lousy teacher.. =)

tml bio prac

2004-10-27T18:26:00.000+08:00

tml bio prac.. sian diao.. -.-'' WISH ME GOOD LUCK!.. lolx.. i'm quite well-prepared le.. so.. shud be ok.. haha.. HOPEFULLY everything goes rite.. =D JIA YOU!!!!!! good luck to all those taking bio prac tml!.. =)

something really wrong with my blog.. dunno wad photobucket.. see got time.. i'll go change lay-out.. hopefully it can recover =)

tv tv tv

2004-10-26T18:26:00.000+08:00

hmm.. a bit lazy to post.. i'm being a lil obsessed with tv.. haha.. ever since the ren wo ao yiu... quite a nice show.. =D it has been long since i have been hooked by the tv.. its quite a bad news.. lolx.. cos its O level period now.. n i have 2 distractions at home.. 1. com 2. tv lolx..

O is really v near.. bio prac is in 2 days time.. tml must memorise all the labelling n stuff.. lots of things to memorise.. hate it..

to those taking Os: jia you ba!.. =D dun too stressed out.. n most importantly dun fall sick! =D take good care!!!

chinatown

2004-10-24T22:23:00.000+08:00

ok.. today din study much.. read half the phy tb.. n keep on dozing off.. den at bout 5.. was dragged to chinatown.. my aunt call we all go eat dunno wad claypot rice.. my uncle say till v nice.. den the business v good.. good until have to wait till AN HOUR.. -.-'' end up eat tt time.. i dun even tink it is nice lo.. *grrr made me wait for an hour.. den the taste so disappointing.. bullshit!.. den walk ard chinatown.. can u believe it? shopping at CHINATOWN!.. lolx.. den walk pass a place where sells stamps.. the chinese kind.. carve ur name on the stone tt kind.. hehx.. den was attracted by it.. so got 1.. carved my chinese name.. use "gu wen" --- those very traditional kinda writings.. very nice =) heh heh.. next time sign my name.. will have a chop on it.. wahahaha.. cool~ den came back tt time.. took mrt.. my bro sit beside me.. den he meddling with his hp.. while i've got nothing to do.. so look ard.. den came in a family.. mum.. dad.. n a small boy.. a small kiddo.. sit directly opp me.. starting he keep on screaming.. annoyed by him.. lolx.. den slowly.. he settled down.. den start to look at me.. wahahaha.. keep on looking at me.. make me so pai seh man.. use his v nice eyes DIAN wo!?!?.. wahahaha.. almost ai shang ta.. lol.. v cute.. wahaha.. den when reached our stop.. alight.. den he kept on looking at me!?!?!... his eyes nv leave me lo.. den i said bb to him.. he waved bb to me too.. so cuuuuuuutttttteeeeeee... =D den my bro saw everything n made this comment," the boy must be so amazed by a guy-looking girl" wad the.. he must be jealous.. lolx.. =X

went swimming again =)

2004-10-23T21:13:00.000+08:00

ok.. today.. studied chem.. abt half the book.. den went for tuition.. dint understand everything.. b4 next tuition read up again n clarify everything.. hmm.. den had dinner at ting's place.. planned to go swimming aft tuition initially.. but aft tuition felt reluctant to go.. but step out of ting's place.. den tink tink whether should go anot.. den finally decided to go.. since i've already planned to n i'm geared.. so go lo.. well.. swimming at nite is rather fun.. cos there are hardly anyone there.. but wad's not so fun is tt at nite.. u would be competing space with INSECTS!.. disgusting.. got lotsa flies float on the water.. yuck.. den aft swimming.. came home.. den hav to pass tt shahrul something.. he kept me waiting for 10 min -.-'' grr.. my area is so quiet at nite.. eerie man.. slap tt guy.. lolx... hmm.. tt's bout all..

lan duo chong

2004-10-22T22:16:00.000+08:00

ok.. Os is REALLY near.. n i'm still v lazy.. ughh.. nid some1 to JIAN SHI wo.. where's my mom.. lolx.. haiz.. mommy is nv there for me.. i'm trained to independent.. lolx.. but the training sort of failed.. i still need ppl for me to rely on.. zai jia kao fu mu.. chu wai kao peng you.. now tt i'm "outside" i need to rely on my frens.. haha.. hmm.. still coughing.. it nv seem to get better man.. ughh.. next week bio prac le.. den afternoon went to meet jh.. cos lots of A math dunno how to do.. den end up i got the venue mixed up.. lolx.. 1st time so stupid.. wahahaha.. =D but its ok la.. everybody makes mistake.. lolx.. *consoling myself.. haha.. oh ya.. dint go nite class again today.. my aunt call me dun go sch spread disease to every1.. so heed her advice nor.. haha.. hmm.. today only did some math n studied a bit on chem.. hmm.. must work hard!.. grr.. really need some1 to jian du wo.. but sadly.. no one.. mommy not here.. miss her badly.. altho she nags alot.. haha..

sick?

2004-10-22T09:25:00.000+08:00

yesterday nite nv go nite revision.. cos my aunt insist tt i stay at home n rest.. grr.. she keep on saying i got fever.. den i go measure my temperature. its is perfectly normal lo.. oh common.. 36.9 degree.. budden she still wan me to stay at home n rest.. n i spent my entire nite lazing ard.. lolx.. ok.. today gonna STUDY!... gonna do some math.. but i guess.. math sure got alot og probs dunno how to do.. ah mi to fo... y i so stupid.. lolx...

busy day

2004-10-21T15:55:00.000+08:00

this morning woke up at 7!.. ughh.. alarm rang n i woke up.. but was so reluctant to get out of bed.. lie back on the bed.. den morning call came.. n my voice sound excruciatingly funny.. duhz -.-'' i was soOooO reluctant to wake up.. but forced myself out of bed.. n went sch.. for english remedial.. how sian.. its sort of a QnA session.. aint interesting.. den aft tt.. TUITION!.. ughhh... on humans again.. so teacher was like talking talking n talking.. while both of us falling asleep... lol.. n came back.. later on got NIGHT REVISION!... how sad.. my head is exploding le la.. grrr... I DUN WANNA TAKE O LEVEL!... its such a torture.. ughhh...

must study!?!?!...

2004-10-20T20:33:00.000+08:00

my god.. today nv study much.. read thru bio only!.. den study till half keep on wanting to slp.. my god.. must b yesterday slept too late.. slept at bout 3+ den woke up at abt 1030.. lolx.. go against my biological clock.. tt's y become like tt.. haha.. den afternoon went to meet jh to study.. end up talk talk talk.. lolx.. too much to talk about -.-'' study with others wont like tt de lo.. but with tt idiot.. so "productive" lolx.. well well.. must really study hard.. tml hav to go sch.. den after tt got tuition.. aft tt must study le.. hmm.. cannot slack anymore.. lolx.. i still cant believe tt i talked so much jus now.. usually v task-focused.. but today.. exceptional.. tsk tsk.. must study!.. must study!

study study study

2004-10-19T20:10:00.000+08:00

studied quite a bit today.. some math.. geog.. n jus now tuition.. on ss n geog.. my god.. the teacher were like used BOMBASTIC words that is 1. out of syllabus 2. i dun understand. n he kept on PEN KOU SHUI.. DISGUSTING!?!?.. grr -.-'' n the best part is he used my book to wipe it.. goodness.. well.. nvm bout it.. oh ya.. my bill came.. its under control.. lolx.. didnt exceed much.. but my younger bro.. he broke my highest record man.. mine was 200+ nearing 300. he this month's bill 500+.. gan bai xia feng.. he win liao.. best man.. 500+.. my goodness.. mine is like 8 times lower than his.. tsk tsk.. my dad's gonna find out.. he better pray for his survival.. lolx.. ah mi to fo (helping him pray) muhahahahaha.. ok.. tt's abt all for today.. nothing much...

ahem.. cough.. ahem

2004-10-18T20:41:00.000+08:00

went to visit the doc jus now.. thx to the cough i have.. its like years since i coughed.. i hardly cough.. but when it comes.. it nv goes.. last time when i was young.. bout 7 or 8.. i coughed for like months.. diao....... den my aunt ask me go see doc.. cos now preparing for exams.. she scared later from cough become fever.. -.-'' if its not exam.. she would have asked me to go n die -.-'' lolx.. the doctor.. v good.. wished me gd luck for my Os.. lol.. n gave me a GREEN coloured cough mixture.. i hate cough mixture.. pui!.. den i mentioned i have got frequent headaches.. den he say cos i see the com too much... i cant part with my com.. dui..

dead

2004-10-18T16:24:00.000+08:00

ok.. todays science prac is a total gone case!... physics were easy.. no kick.. but when it comes to chem.. my god.. its disastrous.. suppose to test for gases.. den i test.. i got things like oxygen.. carbonate.. while i hear popping sound.. ppl are getting hydrogen n i'm getting oxygen n carbonate.. my god.. n the other chem question... abt titration.. i tot mine was ok.. cos i did everything as told.. my 1st test i used 7 drops n 2nd used 17 drops. but when i stepped out of the lab.. i hear ppl having 50 n 100 drops.. 40 n 80.. goodness... is like whole lot of difference.. lolx.. die le la.. chem is dead.. phy... hopefully can score.. goodness......

but no matter wad.. its over- work hard for the theory part ba.. oh ya.. 28th is bio prac.. hope everything goes smoothly for tt.. best is come out food test.. tt will be great =D n hopefully ms sae guess correctly.. fruits o plants come out.. anything other than tt.. i dunno how to do le.. lolx..

After the prac paper.. locked up in a classroom.. scared leak question -.-'' lame MOE.. den i was bz signing autograph book for ppl... 4 in a row.. write n draw till my hands were like... lolx..

0h ya.. jus now bought seventeen n the prom outfits were gorgeous.. of course the price is gorgeous too.. but.. dun care.. jus get something tt i like will do... =D

O levels faster over leh.. den prom.. woohoo~ gonna shop the hell outa my life aft Os.. lolx.. jus finished prac paper.. now thinking bout prom liao.. bth myself.. lolx..

sci prac tml

2004-10-17T22:23:00.000+08:00

gd luck to me for sci prac tml!!!... my god.. Os IS here!!!!... nitemare.. lolx.. nah.. tml b4 i go will pray n chant.. lolx.. hope tt my zhu xian will bao you me.. give me lucks n do the practical nicely.. jiao chu piao liang de chen ji dan.. wahahahaha.. okok.. hope tt i can make it.. jia you!!! .. lucks to all those taking prac tml.. =D

oh ya.. jus now i got the news from my mom tt my elder bro is wanting me to visit him in dec.. gee.. it will be winter tt time.. wish my parents will allow.. weeeeee~~~ go AMERICA.. fun!!!.. go there play with snow~~~ wooohoooo~~~

swim........

2004-10-16T22:09:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. today din study much.. *punch myself* science prac is next monday.. 2 days time.. n i'm still slacking.. only managed to do a biiiit of math jus now..n read the phy prac book.. dui.. really must start liao!

went swimming again jus now.. with xin yi.. tt idiot.. push my head.. pull my feet -.-'' nvm bout tt.. plus we saw the girl who kicked me, disturbed me last week.. n we were like searching her to take revenge.. but she disappeared -.- n the xin yi.. muhahaha.. she almost stepped on a guy hu was fully submerged in the water.. jus like a dead body -.-'' den xin yi almost stepped on him. n she even swam pass a girl.. like.. when the girl open her thighs.. den she swam across.. complicated movement.. dunno how to describe.. lolx.. but it was cool man.. especially when she omost stepped on some1 =)

-over-

2004-10-15T22:59:00.000+08:00

i've always wanted it that way.. but.. were told tt it aint possible.. i tried my best.. but to no avail.. everything is gone.. is over.. everytime i see them together.. my heart rips apart.. the happiness that they were sharing.. will nv gonna be mine.. perhaps if i persevere a little longer.. the outcome wont be such.. but it was beyond my ability to hold on......................

A winning smile is the best accessory any dress ever had

2004-10-15T15:16:00.000+08:00

well well.. today is the last day studying in sch.. gonna miss it man.. altho i used to hate it.. but when it comes to parting with it.. dunno y.. kinda she bu de.. all my classmates.. teachers.. amazing huh?.. after all the complains.. i'm missing them now..

during the english intensive.. marcus asked me this," y u so quiet?... u like become v quiet ever since u cut ur hair" er.. i guess.. quiet true.. ever since the incident.. i no longer can laugh n play like i used to.. well.. i still do.. but not as much, or as crazy like last time..

after the el intensive programme.. we were told to go to the special room.. 4h n 4g.. guess wad?.. ms sae, ms lee n ms shim bought us a BIG cake.. parting in a "sweet" sorrow was written on it.. n while the teachers are bz cutting the cakes for us so tt everyone gets a portion.. ms lee asked 4g to gather at the back of the room.. den she gave us each n everyone of us a card.. with something written on it.. everyone got diff thing on it..

here is mine:
" A winning smile is the best accessory any dress ever had."
-C.Terry
You can definitely do well. Do have confidence in yourself.
All the best to you in the coming 'O' level.
Ms Lee CK

very touching rite?.. gee.. ms lee was actually 1 of the teachers in my hated list last time.. but i grew to like her more n more.. i finally passed my A math.. so gonna show good results n prove the sentence rite!...

life goes on.. hang ard with other peeps.. altho i would really love to go back. but i gues i jus aint tt strong to go back n experience the lonesome once more n not be so thick skinned to tag along when i noe my presence aren't welcomed.. dun wanna be transparent no more. i want to find the real me, jus like wad i used to be.. lead life like the past.. when laughters nv leave me.. its kinda like a dream... but it might be possible.. dreams do come true.. but perhaps.. it will take years or even decades before it come.. well well.. let bygones be bygones.. n lead life normally..

oh.. common..

2004-10-13T19:17:00.000+08:00

this morning woke up n din feel like goin sch... but.. kick my butt up n got ready for sch cos i tot we shud be getting our results today... so go sch.. well.. all the lessons today were like slack slack.. den last 2 periods, ms sae (form teacher) showed us her pictures and result slips and testimonials. her O level cert were like ALL As n a B3 for english only lor.. my goodness.. n she also say tt we wont be getting our results back today.. so i was like -.-'' shudn't have came sch.. sian diao..

after sch.. went home den meet up with xin yi n peeps n do math.. well.. it wasnt a very productive session.. basically cos i met lots of problems.. den instead of skipping it.. i spend like lots of time solving it.. so.. end up only do abt half the paper only.. tt's the prob of being stupid. after tt came back.. n yea guess tt's it.. nothing much today la..

mike strickland

2004-10-12T16:04:00.000+08:00

hu's mike strickland?.. lolx.. ok.. i dint now tt there's such a person until yesterday. i was in helping tt bloody neighbour to find some disc.. den at that time the mike strickland's song was played. he's a pianist. the songs are some pop songs played by piano. i simply love the way he plays the piano. can like feel the emotion of the song. very nice. =) those peep who like intrumental musics, or are more into classical, this is highly recommended. (Mike Strickland-Piano Movies) - the tittle of the album.

ok.. enough of the music. come back to today. this morning, i was amazed by the no of absentees in our school.. 4e 4f 4h. is like half of the class present only.. the most petathic part is 4f has only 5 girls present. goodness.. suddenly realise that my class is really v guai. we had only 2 absentees. our queue were like twice or even thrice as long as the rest. den early morning, we saw pencils on our tables. our form teacher bought each n every1 of us a pencil.. -.-'' with those chinese idioms written on it. n all of it is different. she like see hu u are n choose the right phrase to tell u. basically, it is asking us to work hard la.. -.-'' stupid. cheap man.. pencil.. but at least better than nothing.. lolx.. todays lesson was boring la.. i guess now i noe y every1 dun wanna come. but, after all it is like the last few days goin sch, goin class for lesson. so.. no point pontang. n yup.. tt's abt all.. oh ya.. later have to help the stupid neighbour with the songs -.-'' how clever he is. sigh* =X

tired

2004-10-11T22:30:00.000+08:00

ok.. this morning i woke up late.. -.-'' 640 den woke up... LUCKILY.. sch is near.. lolx.. dun wish to go to detention during this time.. ok.. sch today was ok.. till assembly.. there were like some kind of graduation ceremony.. when all the teachers gave a speech.. was rather touching la.. almost cried.. cos 1st time see the teachers say nice things instead of chasing us.. n hounding us for work.. or scolding us for our disciplinary probs..

well.. after sch.. went to catch WHITE CHICKS... godness.. its simply HILARIOUS!... ok.. tt vin.. really nth to say.. was watching it for the 3rd time.. i din noe.. if not i wont let it happen.. i mean.. i'll choose another show.. (so guilty now) well.. the show is really nice.. i mean worth watching.. apart from it being hilarious.. got some parts quite touching.. but almost all of it was hilarious.. bth... LOL all the way.. well.. today relax a bit.. after this must study liao.. hmmm.. esp during home stay period. yea~

back from swimming

2004-10-10T18:22:00.000+08:00

ok.. went swimming jus now.. alone.. quite interesting.. haha.. swim swim swim.. till half got 2 gers come disturb.. 1st time 1 of them push my head away -.-'' 2nd time 1 kick me.. wah.. the 3rd time block me... guess wad i did?.. i slapped her butt!... LOL hu call they all disturb me.. i not hao re de wor.. heh heh heh.. *evil ok.. den swim hao le go take shower tt time.. saw a pair of specs on the floor... dunno wad to do with it.. so left it there.. den after shower.. it was still there.. so.. i did something nice.. brought it to the info counter...=) n aft tt came back.. n tt's abt it...

which 1 to choose?

2004-10-10T14:28:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. today woke up early in the morning to go for tuition.. ok.. i was yawning throughout the lesson.. den aft the tuition.. instead of staying at ting's place.. decided to go home n slp.. but the moment i reached home.. dun feel like sleeping.. was seduced by the com -.-''

ok.. i've already decided to stay in sg... go NYP to take up business management.. but!.. now another headache.. can take up another language.. i'm stucked with 2 choices.. 1. korean 2. french
y this 2 choices?.. ok..

1. korean
i fell in love with the way korean letters are written.. round round 1.. interesting.. n i do listen to some korean songs sometime.. dunno wad the hell they are singing.. jus appreciate the music.. so would like to noe wad the hell the song meant. n sometime watch korean movies.. so would like to watch it without reading the subtitles. BUT!.. the way korean speak is so CHO LO!.. sound so barbaric... *oops

2. french
i've been wanting to visit paris since young.. so taking up french might be good. n the way french speak is so nice to listen to.. but.. the way french is written aint tt interesting.. n i dun watch french movies o listen to their songs.

i'm in a dilemma now.. anybody.. give some suggestion???

heaty

2004-10-08T14:19:00.000+08:00

later got nite class again.. no matter wad.. today must finish the zhss math paper2.. hmm.. today sch's rather ok.. EL period.. ms kodi went thru the compo's we wrote.. lolx.. some v funny.. doesnt make sense.. ms kodi laugh till cry.. lolx..

hmmm.. must remind myself to work hard again.. these few days.. not productive at all.. *bish myself

ulcer

2004-10-07T23:02:00.000+08:00

i hate to hav ulcers man.. i have it rite now.. n its really -.-'' ughh.. sian diao.. hate it.. today sch was again boring.. weather is sOOoOoo humid n hot.. hate singapore's weather... n my class... stuck btw 2 classes.. no ventilation.. damn... quite a normal day ba.. but got nite revision today.. wasn't very productive.. headache... these few days keep on headache.. den feel extremely tired.. haiz.. all Os fault..

arghhh...

2004-10-06T21:46:00.000+08:00

-.-'' i tink i really falling sick.. throat is kinda dry.. den 2 ulcers suddenly come out.. very long since i had it.. my god.. it will take at least a week to heal.. my metobolism rate how come so slow.. wounds.. cuts.. even ulcers take loOooOong time to heal.

feel sick

2004-10-06T19:14:00.000+08:00

having headache now.. arghh..

ok.. today.. sch was very boring!.. except for el lesson.. we were told to stand on our table... to use a diff perspective to see the world.. it was rather interesting.. i was like 2.3m tall.. n i finally noe how yao ming feel.. hahx.. well.. other than tt.. nothing much abt today.. jus tt i'm not feeling very well rite now.. headache.. den breathless.. den wan faint faint like tt.. must be the weather.. hmm.. feel so down rite now..

tuition

2004-10-05T17:25:00.000+08:00

ok.. sch is rather ok today.. got some homework.. came home.. completed it.. later going tuition.

my god.. wad the hell is happening!?!? ppl are accusing my father being crazy.. being possessed.. arghh.. being accused.. ppl are jealous of him.. den gossip ard.. wad the.. pek chek.. i have lotsa prob now.. friends.. studies.. now family.. wad the hell.. sooner or later will have depression le la.. goin mad..

feel sick

2004-10-04T20:55:00.000+08:00

ok.. i managed to do something.. i finished EL hw.. n did some math.. out of 46 topics in the bloody tys.. i managed to jus do 8. n is like last few questions only -.-'' ok.. nvm.. at least i did something.. at least now lg and ln i see liao wont so scared.. feel abit sick rite now.. n realise something.. tml got bio test.. i nv study at all.. song bo.. gonna do it soon..

feeling so energyless

2004-10-04T17:59:00.000+08:00

ok.. i'm feeling so weak rite now.. the malay call it 'lemas' if i nv rmb wrongly.. shud be spelt this way.. the weather today is so!.. Arghhh.. forced myself to do some math jus now.. but only managed to solve 2 diff sums.. den feel so weak.. den decided to take a rest.. later see if i got the energy.. will continue studying..

i dunno wad the outcome will be like.. no idea at all.. jus now saw an advertistment published by the institute of mental health n the ministry of health.. its abt depression.. i kinda have some of the symptoms stated.. lolx.. if this persist.. i tink i've to call the hotline n visit the IMH one of these days.. lolx.. the signs of having depression is feeling extremely sad.. no energy.. bla bla bla.. n got 1 is feel like commiting suicide.. lolx.. felt like tt b4.. can u believe it?.. i'm really goin mad.. altho i'm known to be 1..

life is beautiful, in some ways

2004-10-03T16:03:00.000+08:00

well well.. today woke up n was forced to pack my bloody room.. it makes me feel giddy by jus looking at the mess.. but managed to pack up till it's presentable.. my dad is coming today.. so no matter wa.d.. my aunt insist tt i've to pack the stupid room.. so i did.. with the help of my brother.. n today.. i dun have the mood to study.. only managed to study for 2 hours.. wad a failure -.-'' yesterday can study for 6 hours.. today only 2... 1/3 of it.. hmm.. musn't let this happen again.. goin to chinese garden later on.. hope it'll be fun.. since i've got so much worries.. i guess must sieze this opportunity to relax myself.. yup!.. my daddy reaching soon.. hope tt he wont get a scare with my new hairstyle.. lolx...

my life had nv seemed beautiful in any way.. n i'm a bit sick n tired of being sad all the while.. must learn to be happy.. cos life still goes on.. even if u are sad.. so.. always look on the bright side of life!.. tt's all for today...